Your having thoughts that I’m just your friend. Its like you can never make up your mind. One day your madly in love with me, the next you just want to be a friend. It’s almost like this was some master plan all along since june, you saw that I was moved on, and you needed to pull me in again and then shove me down months later once I let my guard down huh? No one in this world has the power to control my emotions like you do, good and bad. I love you dearly. I can’t even explain to you how much I really love you. But if you feel as if you don’t love me as more then just a simple friend..then leave me. Stop living lies, making me think that you actually love me. Lately, I haven’t felt any love at all from you. I understand everyone gets blah and upset, it happens I know. I’ve been stressed beyond believe since my dui and roomate issues and shit..but never once did I ever question the love I have for you. Yet, you’ve questioned it in the past and now your doing it again..
You make me very happy Colleen, and I love you. I was planning on marrying you and having some babiess with chu. But I can’t do any of that if I don’t make you happy..
I read your blog about how you don’t even know if you truly love me or not..
I don’t even know how that would become a thought when just three weeks ago you were giving me a ring and telling me you want to marry me.
Doubt you’ll even read this.. but know that I just want you to be freaking happy..with or without me.